Yeah, sorry. I've missed a week. And I don't have time right now to tell you about it either. Class starts in ten minutes, and I wanted to give a brief description of how I've been feeling the past 24 hours, in a word: conflicted.

Yesterday as I was walking the streets with novio, I realized that it was exactly the midpoint of my stay here in Mexico. Somehow, it struck me: I am not going to be here forever. Sure, I knew that. But something about the midpoint made me feel like it is all downhill from here. Yet things are only looking up for me. Things are going great. And that is what is so devastating about reaching the midpoint, because the second half always passes faster. You'll read about my good times in the next blog entry, when I have more than 10 (now 7) minutes to write.

I had insomnia last night....I just can't come to terms with the fact that I only have one more week with my host family. I love them dearly for all they've done for me, all they've taught me, for healing my heart, body, and feeding my soul with generosity and kindess. I don't really look forward to living with 20 students in a house again. I am much happier and feel much more authentic and present to the culture/experience while I am with my family.

I got up early because my stomach was hurting so bad- straight through to my back. It's kind of like having rocks scattered in your guts, but the pain in my back is like something petrified around my spine at the bottom of my ribcage and won't move. It's nice. My mom prayed over me again, beseeching the Virgin and Christ to heal me as she massaged my stomach. Sounds weird, but it works.

The one good thing about this morning is that my hair was great! And we are studying poverty and homelessness today in class. Two of my favorites.

This is a weird entry, but I figure that's part of the experience that I could share with you. Sometimes, it's very difficult to live two lives, or to make sense of two lives that are happening simultaneously but are practically completely unrelated. I've felt spread thin before in my life. Right now I feel equally overwhelmed by a life that is so full and so rich. What do I do with it now? In the future?

Love.