I broke down today and bought a hairdryer. I had not styled my hair for three weeks, and it felt remarkably good! I came with very little, expecting something a bit more rustic or casual. For once, I was the lightest-packing person on a trip! I am sure my family will be amazed at this accomplishment. I think pretty much everyone, including the boys, brought at least one BIG rolling suitcase full of clothes and jewelry, make-up, and shoes, etc. I am glad that I don't have that much; I think it would be a distraction to my purpose in being here. But, once I realized that I could and would like to actually do something with my appearance, it seemed irresistable. Sometimes, the smallest things make a big difference in how one feels.
This all sounds very vain, and I am sure that it is. In all honesty though, having been here awhile now I am realizing that I will always stand out for being a young, white, female, and an American. While I will gain confidence operating within the city, I could never be a "local." I don't necessarily want to be anyway. Since I can't change who I am, and since I have little control over what this society reads into my appearance, I figure I might as well just be myself. And I do like to blow dry my hair. I also bought nail polish, though I am not wearing that yet.
Having some little familiar things is beneficial to treating my homesickness as well. I cannot make cool air or rainclouds appear. I cannot snap my fingers to see my family and friends. I cannot have my room or my kitchen, my gym or my running routes, green grass or an ocean. But I can have a blow dryer and nailpolish, and I don't see any reason to deny myself a few comforts. Besides, with the amount of salsa dancing I plan to do here, I need a hairstyle to match the dress and pretty shoes...right? :)
Sending you Love.