Oh, and I forgot to mention one other consolation. Yesterday, I had a date with novio. He took me to Jardin Borda. It was beautiful! How I miss lush foliage and just to see the color green made me first giddy, then I filled with tranquility. He rowed me around the little lagoon for about an hour as we talked and watched the ducks and chased after turtles.

It's like a dream. I don't want to wake up. How I fear the sunrise in May.